You'll find the horizon. I promise you it's not as far as you think.

I forgot to mention in my last post: remember how I celebrated my 100th post? Well... apparently that was a lie. My most recent post was my 100th. Turns out they include unfinished drafts in that number! Who knew?

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In other news, I went to the Jack's Mannequin concert at In the Venue Tuesday night. And let me tell you, it was absolutely amazing! I loved it. I'm a much bigger fan of them than I was before. That's for sure. They are pretty much fantastic live.
Unfortunately I forgot my camera. Oh well.
Andrew played "Swim (Music Box Version)" on the piano. It was so beautiful. I remember there was a time, maybe like last year? two years ago? I can't remember, but anyway, Camille just loved that song (I think she still does) and I would listen to it and be like "eh, it's okay I guess." I thought it was a nice little tune, but really cheesy, even for me. Then just recently, before we went to the concert, I started listening to them again to prepare. I heard that song and for some reason it just was a completely different experience than when I'd listened to it before. I guess, maybe it was that I was feeling sad and lonely, or just confused in general, so it was more relate-able. I don't know. I'm sort of obsessed with the music box version though. I really like it because when I'm sad I tend to listen to music that matches my mood. It doesn't generally make me feel any better, but anything happier just annoys me. In fact, it usually enhances my sadness haha. This song is just the right mix of sad and hopeful so that I actually feel better after I listen to it. It's cheesy, but it's pretty comforting and it's just a good reminder that there are reasons to keep trying.
You should probably listen to it.

I actually liked the version he played on the piano even better. So guess what? I'm learning it! Yay. Yeah, I decided to go back to my piano-playing. I miss those days. So I've learned the first page and plan on buying the rest soon. It's just beautiful. I think, anyway.
And here are the cheesy lyrics that I love:

You gotta swim,
Swim for your life,
Swim for the music,
That saves you,
When you're not so sure you'll survive,
You gotta swim,
And swim when it hurts,
The whole world is watching,
You haven't come this far,
To fall off the earth,

The currents will pull you,
Away from your love,
Just keep your head above,

I found a tidal wave,
Begging to tear down the dawn,
Memories like bullets,
They fired at me from a gun,
Cracking the armor yeah,
I swim for brighter days,
Despite the absence of sun,
Choking on salt water,
I'm not giving in,
Swim,

You gotta swim,
For nights that won’t end,
Swim for your families,
Your lovers your sisters,
And brothers and friends,
Yeah, you gotta swim,
For wars without cause,
Swim for the lost politicians,
Who don't see their greed as a flaw,

The currents will pull us,
Away from our love,
Just keep your head above,

I found a tidal wave,
Begging to tear down the dawn,
Memories like bullets,
They fired at me from a gun,
Cracking the armor yeah,
I swim for brighter days,
Despite the absence of sun,
Choking on salt water,
I'm not giving in,
Well I'm not giving in,
Swim

You gotta swim,
Swim in the dark,
There's no shame in drifting,
Feel the tide shifting and wait for the spark,
Yeah you gotta swim,
Don't let yourself sink,
Just find the horizon,
I promise you it's not as far as you think,
The currents will drag us away from our love,

Just keep your head above,
Just keep your head above,
Swim,
Just keep your head above,
Swim,
Swim,
Just keep your head above,
Swim.

The world carries on without you but nothing remains the same.

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I feel like I have a lot to say so I might just post a lot of random blogs today. Just to give you a fair warning.

First of all, something has been on my mind quite a bit lately. This is probably because the people of Spanish Fork have been having a rough time. In case you haven't heard, there have been a couple of tragedies that have greatly impacted many people there. The main one was the terrible train accident that took the lives of three girls.
This stayed on my mind for days, I couldn't stop thinking about those girls. I thought about how they had facebooks, crushes, homework, and friends just like every other teenager I know.They had futures and dreams and they had no idea what was going to happen that day. It reminded me that life is short and we don't know how long we have. It made me want to better appreciate the life I have and the people I love.
I haven't exactly been loving life the way I should. After thinking about this for awhile though, I've started to try to really live it. I want to make my life the way I dream it will be. I don't want to be afraid to actually do what I want to do. My friend on facebook wrote a note recently about jealousy. She brought up a point that I think is very true. We tend to look at people who have the kind of life we wish we had and we say "They are so lucky! I am jealous, if only I could be like that." But really, they had to work for that and we can do the same. I want to actually be active in pursuing the kind of life I want to lead. Surprises will come along the way of course, tragedies and hard times, but I want to be prepared and to never forget to show the people I care about that I love them.
I didn't know these girls, but I am keeping their families in my prayers, I hope they can find comfort and peace through this really difficult time.

Fall is awesome.

 It's starting to get colder, which makes me sad, but I do love the fall colors. I hiked Big Springs and Stewart Falls with a couple of awesome people and the trees were just beautiful so I took some pictures, of course.

   Big Springs Trail.

This is for Tyler.

 On the way to Stewart Falls. I love the colors in this one!

Also, speaking of fall activities, I went to my very first college football game. BYU was losing pretty much all the way up until the fourth quarter so it got kind of intense. They ended up winning, it was kind of surprising but good. 

 And Halloween is coming up and turns out my roommates are fantastic at scary decorating. We're all pretty proud of what we created haha.

 Yeah, you should probably be scared.

...And Psych comes back in like two and a half days!

http://www.youtube.com/user/PSYCHonUSANetwork?v=n5_6ERGXyAE&feature=pyv&ad=6200662226&kw=psych#p/u/2/w3qwc53IBlk


Anyway, that's all I've got to say.

Wow it's been forever and a day.

It's been forever since I've blogged...

Well, school started. That's been great and difficult and crazy all at once. I feel like I'm always running because I'm pretty much gone from 7:30 am to 10:30 pm every day. I absolutely love my creative writing class even though I'm really not a very good creative writer... or writer in general, but I'm working on it! Human Development is interesting but the homework and tests are pretty intense. History of Psychology is really good. My professor leads great discussions and his lectures are never boring. We'll see if I like it after the mid-term though... Anyway, enough about school.

Aren't they cute?

A couple of weeks ago my family and I took a trip to Minnesota to visit with my dad's side of the family. My grandma turned 75 so we had a huge birthday party for her. I actually really enjoyed the whole trip. We were able to drive by the house my dad grew up in, the lake he lived by, and his high school and it was kind of fun to learn about my dad's past because I feel like I don't know as much about his as I do about my mom's. I'm glad we all got to go out there and see everyone because it really has been forever since we've seen a lot of those people--about ten years--and I don't remember much about the last trip.

Visiting with my grandparents, aunts, and uncles made me wish I saw them more often! I feel like there's a whole part of my family I know nothing about. They are all awesome though. The birthday party went really well and I think my grandma felt loved. At least I hope she did because like 50 people came and my aunt put a ton of work into making everything work.




Also, I think Minnesota is really gorgeous. The lakes are beautiful, the rivers are way bigger than the ones in Utah, and the trees are so green and shady. If the winters weren't so awful I'd consider living there someday. I looked out the window the whole plane ride back to Utah and the day was really clear so I could see the Minnesota scenery extremely well and I just thought it was beautiful.





Anyway, I have more to post about but I think this will have to be all for now. Ciao!