You'll find the horizon. I promise you it's not as far as you think.

I forgot to mention in my last post: remember how I celebrated my 100th post? Well... apparently that was a lie. My most recent post was my 100th. Turns out they include unfinished drafts in that number! Who knew?

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In other news, I went to the Jack's Mannequin concert at In the Venue Tuesday night. And let me tell you, it was absolutely amazing! I loved it. I'm a much bigger fan of them than I was before. That's for sure. They are pretty much fantastic live.
Unfortunately I forgot my camera. Oh well.
Andrew played "Swim (Music Box Version)" on the piano. It was so beautiful. I remember there was a time, maybe like last year? two years ago? I can't remember, but anyway, Camille just loved that song (I think she still does) and I would listen to it and be like "eh, it's okay I guess." I thought it was a nice little tune, but really cheesy, even for me. Then just recently, before we went to the concert, I started listening to them again to prepare. I heard that song and for some reason it just was a completely different experience than when I'd listened to it before. I guess, maybe it was that I was feeling sad and lonely, or just confused in general, so it was more relate-able. I don't know. I'm sort of obsessed with the music box version though. I really like it because when I'm sad I tend to listen to music that matches my mood. It doesn't generally make me feel any better, but anything happier just annoys me. In fact, it usually enhances my sadness haha. This song is just the right mix of sad and hopeful so that I actually feel better after I listen to it. It's cheesy, but it's pretty comforting and it's just a good reminder that there are reasons to keep trying.
You should probably listen to it.

I actually liked the version he played on the piano even better. So guess what? I'm learning it! Yay. Yeah, I decided to go back to my piano-playing. I miss those days. So I've learned the first page and plan on buying the rest soon. It's just beautiful. I think, anyway.
And here are the cheesy lyrics that I love:

You gotta swim,
Swim for your life,
Swim for the music,
That saves you,
When you're not so sure you'll survive,
You gotta swim,
And swim when it hurts,
The whole world is watching,
You haven't come this far,
To fall off the earth,

The currents will pull you,
Away from your love,
Just keep your head above,

I found a tidal wave,
Begging to tear down the dawn,
Memories like bullets,
They fired at me from a gun,
Cracking the armor yeah,
I swim for brighter days,
Despite the absence of sun,
Choking on salt water,
I'm not giving in,
Swim,

You gotta swim,
For nights that won’t end,
Swim for your families,
Your lovers your sisters,
And brothers and friends,
Yeah, you gotta swim,
For wars without cause,
Swim for the lost politicians,
Who don't see their greed as a flaw,

The currents will pull us,
Away from our love,
Just keep your head above,

I found a tidal wave,
Begging to tear down the dawn,
Memories like bullets,
They fired at me from a gun,
Cracking the armor yeah,
I swim for brighter days,
Despite the absence of sun,
Choking on salt water,
I'm not giving in,
Well I'm not giving in,
Swim

You gotta swim,
Swim in the dark,
There's no shame in drifting,
Feel the tide shifting and wait for the spark,
Yeah you gotta swim,
Don't let yourself sink,
Just find the horizon,
I promise you it's not as far as you think,
The currents will drag us away from our love,

Just keep your head above,
Just keep your head above,
Swim,
Just keep your head above,
Swim,
Swim,
Just keep your head above,
Swim.